Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Time for an update
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Summer is begining, so many changes.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
They don't even know how their songs can speak to your heart
I'm gonna love myself More than anyone else Believe in me Even if someone can't see A stronger woman in me I'm gonna be my own best friend Stick with me till the end Won't lose myself again Never, no Cuz' there's a stronger woman A stronger woman in meThats the chorus and to me it hits very close to home. Here is the other part of the song that gets me crying:
I've lived on hope Like a child Walking that mile Faking that smile All the while Wishing my heart had wings Well from now on I'm gonna be The kind of woman I'd want my daughter to be OhSo I have added this song to my "birth" playlist for my MP3 player so I don't have to worry about anyone switching my songs. They can listen to what they want and I can be off with my MP3 and just be in labor land. I don't think that song writter/musicians really know how deeply thier songs can effect people.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
What right do I have???
Sunday, May 25, 2008
I am finally me again!!!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Its been a while time to update
Thursday, April 17, 2008
What will be my partners roll in this birth?
Saturday, April 12, 2008
The "what ifs" VS the "why not me"
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Very angry and need to vent
Terbutaline was originally approved for usage by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration for the treatment of asthma symptoms. It acts to relax muscles. It has never been approved for use as a drug to prevent labor (a tocolytic drug).
The manufacturer of terbutaline (sold under brand names of brethine and bricanyl) has never sought labeling approval for use as a tocolytic and, in fact, its labeling has specifically stated that it was not approved for treatment of pre-term labor.
Despite such labeling and despite the absence of clinical trial data which would support the efficacy and safety of the use of terbutaline as a maintenance tocolytic (usage of greater than 48 hours), for over 20 years obstetricians have been using terbutaline in such an off-label manner to slow or prevent pre-term labor.
Recent studies relate terbutaline usage to autism. The possibility of such a link has been recognized for some time.
There may be more than one cause of autism. That does not exonerate terbutaline as a cause.
You know this really makes me very angry and I know alot of that anger comes from my own personal experience with being lied to by providers and knowing that they most of the time spew crap. They spread fear and crap! And if you don't go along with what they are recommending or if you question in anyway you get the old "dead baby" card. All a mother needs to hear is "your baby could die" and most of the time it works. Well I am sorry not on me. NOT ANYMORE! Birth is as safe as life gets. There is NOTHING in life that has a 100% guarantee why should anyone expect birth to be 100%. I was given this drug in my second pregnancy as they thought I was in early preterm labor, now looking back I know it wasn't labor but at the time I was a good girl, the good patient that did everything her OB/CNM told me to do and I NEVER questioned if this drug was safe for me or baby. I just assumed that if it wasn't approved for it they wouldn't use it. Wow such a crock of shit!